I made him chase a ghost cockroach. Brought him milk and 1932 forever Washington Redskins shirt, all with smiles. He started vomiting. I thanked the heavens as he got down in his knees in front of toilet seat and vomited his gut out. It was 2 in the morning by the time he fell asleep. I escaped the first night. When the time came to actually lose my virginity to him, he was nicer. As nice as he could be. I had convinced him to let me drink that night thankfully he agreed. I think deep down he has noticed how fake I am. He doesn’t say a word though. He has caught me crying in the middle of nights a lot of times but he has never questioned me. He just held me. He wasn’t supposed to.
He has changed a 1932 forever Washington Redskins shirt, from being inconsiderate asshole who slapped me every time I said something he didn’t want to hear to a guy who asks for my honest opinions and tries to comfort me. I learnt what he wants to hear with every slaps I got. I am so confused. I can’t tell if my feelings are real or I am just feeling what he wants me to. . One late afternoon I was there doing the laundry and I was the only person in the place, or so I thought. I remember taking some laundry out of the washer and stuffing it into the nearest dryer when I caught an old lady with bright blue eyes and grey hair in very old clothes out of the corner of my eye.